Lost: Best Friend

When my friends and I graduated in high school, we made a promise to stay connected despite the busy schedules being in a college have. A promise to stay best friends forever and see each other once in a while. But now I could say that that promise is nowhere to be seen.

I think it is pretty normal to feel awkward around each other after a couple of months of zero girl bonding. But I think it is another issue to finally know that your best friend had a boyfriend without even telling you, you were dissed for her NEW BEST FRIEND, did not even care to invite you on her birthday and to totally forget your birthday after being together for the whole high school years. I was really down after these things happen. I don't even know our status right now. I have absolutely no idea if everything will ever be the same again.

I think I am jinxed. I seem to be hopeless and unlucky in the friendship department. It is sad to say that I was always being left behind. I tried opening up to her but I just can't. I don't know if I just don't have the guts or it is because I never see her alone and always with her new best friend. It is quite sad that after all those years that my best friend and I were together, she's now so far away from me. It seems like she evolved in this new kind of person. A stranger.

As much as I wanted to bring back all those times, she seems to be not in the mood for that. I think she's kind of bored and done with me. Even after hundreds of text messages, I wouldn't even get a single reply. My ways of reaching out seem to be of no use.

But still I want to fix this once and for all. I want to reach out and talk. And if ever this friendship will just be history, I want to have closure so that I can now move on with a loss.