Pressures and Expectations

Back in high school, I think people always see me as a plain Jane. I am a goody-goody. A geek. They expect me to be good in everything. I felt that I was pressured to excel in my studies and just forget about having fun and having a weekend gimmick. My usualroutine would be house-school, school-house. No more,no less.

I live a very protected life. My parents are strictthat before I am not allowed to go out on the weekend with my friends.That wasuntil I turned 18. But still there are things that I am not allowed to do. Like dating.

I feel that I am living a not so exciting life. It is because there are lots of expectations that people want meto be. My family and my relatives expect me to do well in school especially during these times wherein we are in the midst of a financial problem. I feel that they are expecting me to be able to help them after I finish my studies.

That is why I am so afraid of failure. I will feel guilty if I am not able tomeet their expectations for me. That is why I always put pressure on myself that I should do well andtonever ever fail.

Sometimes I wish that I should be like my friends who are able to enjoy their teen lives at its fullest. I wish I could be in their shoes even for once. I wish I would be able to have fun once in a while.